That best way to explain the following ideas is to give a chronological explanation of events in my life that I personally believe many people can relate to. Although some could consider the following a narcissistic venture or promotion of a specific ideology, I stress applying the most appropriate set of beliefs that complement your overall being.
Throughout the trials and tribulations of this semester, I relate my internal consciousness to a stumbling runner who is never fully capable to regain their balance. Upon the first days of class I set impressive goals and grandiose plans; however, reality reared its ugly head and deflated many of my aspirations.
For my entire life I have hardly invested in guiding principles or the end to a means. Reality equated to an identity crisis that would, at times, paralyze me with confusion and frustration. I never fully developed principles or beliefs that motivated my total body and soul to bear arms against the challenges of life.
This internal misguidance has been especially evident in the last two and half years of my collegiate experience. I have repeatedly tested and trashed “personas,” even at times attempting to list qualifiers or activities that I ignorantly assumed defined me as a complete individual. What I truly required was a transcendent force. Christianity has always hovered in the background, but repeatedly I have disregarded it’s beckoning in favor of much more superficial, immediate benefits. The idea of devouring the contents of the Bible tickles my logical mind, but unfortunately I have struggled to motivate my rather sporadic emotional intelligence. Recently, I have begun to realize the connection between Christianity and my internal stability.
To understand the means, you must have an understanding of the end. If the end is hazy, or even nonexistent, then you will meander through various means ultimately coming to a depilating end. If you do not guide your actions with a transcendent, subjective ideology, your internal state of consciousness will forever be in a state of disarray.
This transcendent ideology does not necessarily have to be a religion or faith. Obviously, there are those who do not believe in a higher power, but nevertheless, a guiding philosophy of life is required to be successful. It has taken me 20 years to come to this conclusion and my personal answer is my faith. I do not cling to my faith because of the possibility of personal, selfish enrichment. I embrace my faith because I believe in the power of the words, the teachings, and the ultimate end.